Many more things which are so prominent but i act as if nothing ever comes across my mind. I WANT A SMART BRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Johor is not a place for me to hang out at.

Lousy skin = tan skin = bo bian because i dont like being fair.

Yayy!! Monday's gonna be a good good day... BECAUSE IT WILL BE MY LAST TIME SEEING THAT KID FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! Super excited to say goodbye and never see you again till next year. Hopefully he will mature and stop being like an idiotic kid who knows it all (vulgar things)

WHO WANNA WANNA WANNA GO TO THE NIGHT SAFARI THIS FRIDAY NIGHT OR SENTOSA ON FRIDAY NIGHT? LU LAO BO(ME) DRIVING!!!! SAM! I CAN GET THE CAR HEHEHEHEHHEHEHE!!!!!!! MEANING TWO MORE PEOPLE CAN SIT!!

My sister say go there also waste money, what for pay to scare yourself.

Today weather's sure is hot! 1hr of basking under the sun is enough for today. Got my new contacts! No more colour contacts!!! BECAUSE ITS TOO EXPENSIVE!!!!

IT HURTS TO USE NETS!

NB! I WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT AT OTHER AREAS RATHER THEN MY STOMACH!

Self pity, firstly, what i just wish to curse and shaft my third finger to anything that comes to my way but of course i thought carefully that it might be too vulgar as i am said to be like an introvert or some of my friends said i am an extrovert. It all depends on the environment i am in, socializing with different people. If you think i am an introvert, its all because i can't understand you and the level you speak to me ain't the same thinking dude!!! If you think otherwise, it is because i totally understand you and i am willing to share more to you because i don't feel stupid hanging around you. Cheers. End of topic. Now i know social influence is monkey see monkey do. Typical lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Oh yes, i was actually speaking about my bad day today and i went to in depth with all the pyscology crap. Okay, today was my miserable day, carried around with a heavy turtle bag, almost knocked down the entire shelf of bra's and thongs at Cotton On, late for class, miss my last bus 77 and waited like an idiot at the interchange while my boyfriend being a nice boy called to chat. Went to the ATM and no more money available!!!!!! Went to hunt for cabs that accept nets and cabbed home, role play to plan for next class. SOOO MANY THINGS IN MY HEAD!

At the Interchange:

ME: SHIT! I THINK NO MORE BUS ALREADY!!!!!!! HOW SIA!!!
JOCELYN: OH NO, HOW SIA? SHIT LEH MY BUS COME ALREADY!! HOW, I WAIT FOR YOU?
ME: NVM NVM! ITS OKAY!!!
JOCELYN: REALLY? I CAN WAIT!
ME: REALLY LAH, YOU GO FIRST! I WAIT FOR AWHILE IF NOT I CAB HOME!!
JOCELYN: YOU SURE AH? BUT YOU LOOK LIKE YOU GOING TO CRY LEH, HAHAHAHA!!!!
ME: SIAO! I NOT A KID ALREADY!
JOCELYN: OKAYYY LAH BYEEEE!!

20mins later, she called! (awwww so sweet!) but i was still outside! Trying to withdraw money when the freaking atm can't dispense cash anymore!!!!!!!

they should srsly put nets to every single taxis. SEE! what if such shit happens to you, atm cant dispense cash, and gotta use nets to pay for your cab fare?

Being the smallest in the entire household, sometimes it gets really tiring to just been seen as the weakest in all, be it health or studies & money issues. I was belittled. I was being encouraged by many to go to the next Wuhan study week for 6weeks at beginning of March till mid april and part with all of my love one just to have an experience about their diarroeh issues and their not so spendthrift idea. Will think about it carefully, how to not see my dear ones for 6weeks. Staying in that pathetic hostel with a hole to shit,pee,bath all at once in the same cubicle. Clothes are to be handwashed and no ironing which is thankgod because i have never in my entire 19years of life span did i touch an ironing board.

Advantages: Skip a core module and one IS module, tempting shit right?



I wish that i could have a pink or red car or a sleek black/white, fast in a way for my own, by that i could increase my confidence on the road as i will just dash out without thinking about the routes first which i have to because i dont know my way around singapore by looking at the signs. I think public transport is easier but in a way more appealing and cooler and faster is of course a car!

My cornea is getting worst, degree had reached a new height/level. Again i need money for my new contacts. I wear expensive contacts if you must know. $40/mth.

Just dugged into my hardly any savings left account to get myself a new shoe. Why issit so hard not to spend on yourself before you leave for a better country to shop where you know you can just say to your other travelling partner "Buy Only!!" HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!

Just feel like sunbathing this weekend. anyone?

Bad day Bad Time Bad Life. Fml.

Bought a 4GB Thumbdrive for nothing, which the lie i had made up but its alright because i earned an extra 30bucks into my pocket. Baby boy had his day buy buying the new Psp go, fucking small and nice, so much better then the older version. got lost by finding the stupid tau huay shop around laselle, took the longer route though! Now being an ass, i got neither a surprise nor a special gift to think to give due to the limit amount of money i gotta spent on exchanging to us currency. bad timing.

On a sunday afternoon, had tea meetups just like 'taitais'. Sat at Tea Party along upper bukit timah route near 6th Ave and got into the chatterbox mood till evening and then headed down to faceshop at Imm and splurge and shop even at guardians/watson ;)

USD DROP U ASS! give me at least a 1.35!!!!!!!!!!

We are golden.

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus, running around like a clown on purpose. Who gives a damn about the family you come from? No givin up when you’re young and you want some.

Waking up in the midday sun. What’s to live for? You could see what I’ve done. Staring at emotion
In the light of day, I was running from the things that you’d say.

Now I’m sitting alone. I’m finally looking around. Left here on my own. I’m gonna hurt myself Maybe losing my mind. I’m still wondering why. Had to let the world, let it bleed me dry.

yea who gives a damn about all these!!! Been giving up my sleep for some night activities. last week of school holidays which i hate to see whats coming up, challenges to overcome. what is just getting me going till the end of the year are just a few things ....... the freaking song is in my head (repeat x10000000000000000000) , the next holiday to San Fransico finally booked successfully, hopefully to spend time with my baby after i am back. it sucks to leave you behind, and i feel so terribly bad that i will not come back for our 1 year anniversary!!!

number 1. save money like i am going to buy a house at the end of the year!
number 2. reset background for bb!

JOCELYN SAM! THIS WEEK WANNA WALA WALA AGAIN? HAHAHAHA!

dont see you.

Thoughts of the night that goes till morning.

this is why they are so dear to me, no awkwardness.

Just a substitute? Keep memories so closely to yourself even i feel that i am just one of those few. "__ & I" folder which one of my bestie just mentioned earlier on and how can i not realised it when its in my harddisk all along, well I don't ogle into people's privacy unless i feel its a need to. I think i don't have one. I feel so insecure right now, what the fuck. One of the Bestie - dont worry, its not your fault for telling me that, because i just got so damn pist that i felt like a substitute because i was once one. Like your kiddo who you think might take you as a substitute or maybe that kiddo dont want her then go for you instead. i know that feel. it sucks.

oh dear.

i want to get away from this little island into a far away place!

Finally its happening so soon this dec.

All these is NOT about me!

Getting free drinks out of no where, a privellged to all girls but not for the boyfriends. tomorrow there wont be any, i promise. Much to be forgiven yet not being told to.

It seems with me ....

i have yet to choose my IS Modules. Alright decided on one but not yet the second. Life is so boring, yet sometimes thrilling. Hearing stories of couples being broken up again and again, i just endure my paranoid moments to keep it lasting. Moments to be kept alive, i wish it to be continued.

sometimes love cannot be patched back even though he seemed to love her even more after her grave mistakes she had done to him. i feel pathetic for him and another moment, i wanna pat on his shoulder to say "just let go".

"infront of others, i am nothing"